The depths of Stormy Waters....

People People People....

I have come to the conclusion, that, in so many things that it is safe to go ahead, be cliché and say in life in general, the following statement has proven to be absolutely true.

Wishing Doesn't Make It So

I realize that sometimes I use very obscure quotes and a lot of times the meanings of things that I say are missed, misconstrued, or worse they are taken 180% wrong which is how I got this irritating reputation of being rude. Ha ha. But I digress.

My statement means simply this: You can want something and want something and still not get it. It goes even further. Not only can you want something and want something and still not get it, but you can even WORK towards that thing, actually strive to bring it to fruition, only to watch your dream burn away into nothingness like so many things I've tried to cook in my time. In many cases they are only the fabled "dreams of the moment"...where you want something very very badly one month, and then the next month you look at that $2000 expenditure and can't remember why you ever thought you needed a miniature pink leather covered piano signed by Little Richard (and this statement applies just as much when dealing with the opposite sex as it does for hastily purchased Ebay "treasures"). Again...I digress.

As I was saying before I got myself off on a tangent...Some people were just not meant to have certain things.

Interpretation One: Although this is the first interpretation, it is actually secondary to the reasoning for which I have latched on to my statement…..but important just the same. You can want something so badly that you'll do almost anything to get it…including the trusty three that almost everyone can name LIE CHEAT AND STEAL to get them, and STILL not succeed. Sometimes you don't get the things you want simply because of how you go about attaining them. Why try the back road when you've never ventured up the front? Why break the window instead of knocking at the front door? Why hide when being in plain view benefits you more?

Interpretation Two: But sometimes….It just isn't in God's plan. If God did not mean for you to be a basketball player, you can work, exercise, practice shooting, be Allen Iverson's third cousin once removed and still not make it to the NBA. You just can folks. Sad truth. But that of course, shouldn't keep you from trying things. You just have to understand that sometimes in your life you will make a leap of faith, but what you think was faith may have been avarice, or even simple stupidity. It may not have been your time. You may have upset an important person along the way. You just may not have….almost anything really…because there are so many reasons why you couldn't have gotten that one thing you just couldn't live without. It's easy to miss that brass ring when you grab for it…its slippery and only the lucky few can reach it and hang on, but that shouldn't stop you from taking your shot. Always take your shot, but just know that all things happen for a reason, and sometimes what you lose better prepares you for what you will gain later. Or what you lose makes you stronger to deal with the next worst thing to ever happen to you. Either way, you will be blessed to have gained something new from every situation in which you find yourself placed in; whether you got there by God's good grace, or your own stupidity. And that one thing is KNOWLEDGE. The knowledge to make better decisions in the future. Don't be shrouded by the past and let it color your life…let your life be painted by the good and not the bad. Wear bright colors. Laugh until you cry. Forgive someone. Do something silly and enjoy every second of it. I have done this much to the horror of my sisters and brothers (because I'm extra goofy most of the time) and it has given me so many moments of joy, that when bad moments happen I have a million good memories to combat them. And it has led me to love. I have loved hard and I have lost and I have gained again. And sometimes that is just life. When given the chance to love, always grasp it fully ride it until the wheels fall off! You may miss the first time when trying to catch that dream of yours, but keep trying because in the end, you will be a stronger, better YOU for it.

So where am I going with all of this? Well hell, I dunno…but I feel loads better for having said it all. Hopefully someone out there was helped in some way by my ramblings. I just re-read it and I am cringing at all the clichés, but actually, when I'm sad or in a bad mood, I really do think in clichés for some reason (Examples: the sun'll come out tomorrow…it's always darkest before the dawn…don't count your chickens before they're hatched…my mind is like a cliché thesaurus).

It's ..almost 3am here which might account for this….either way….be blessed!