I've chosen to start a new blog because I find myself yet again at the beginning of a new chapter in my life. So far, it's not looking as sunshine and lollipops as I'd hoped for, but I'm confident that things will eventually start to look up. I hate to jinx myself and say I can't imagine they'd get much worse, so I won't. I have horrible luck and I'd rather not tempt the Gods at this point.
I have certain goals for myself...things that...well, bother me about myself and so I'm focusing on getting where *I* feel I need to be. For so long I've worried about how others viewed me, and have recently realized that I have spent the last few years running in circles, accomplishing absolutely nothing.
So my first goal for myself is to find a job here. Not just any job. But a job that doesn't make me want to stab my eyeballs out with a rusty spork. I keep working these "just for the time being" type jobs, and a certain amount of laziness comes with a job you know you don't want and using only as a means to an end. I want a job that will enable me to pay my own way to finish my degree. Not having a degree is a big self confidence let down.
I will do this. I can do this. I'm not sure how...quite honestly I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I truly believe that if I just keep on keeping on, someday that light will be a dim light, which will eventually become a future for me so bright it will never die.
Here's hoping.
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